The other day I wrote an e-mail to a dear friend, and realized afterwards that it was probably one of the most negative, self-blaming, self-critical e-mails I've ever written! Oh, my! That is so unlike me! Today, I'm turning over a new leaf, and reminding myself of all the reasons I need to be both thankful and positive, rather than remorseful and negative! Thus, I'm borrowing this poster from another dear friend to serve as reminders why I should never allow myself to get to such a low, funky mood again!
Now you might be wondering why I got to such a depressingly low mood. I had simply admitted that I've not been paying much attention to "my journey" and as a result, have not been able to get rid of the five and a half pounds I put on this summer! Now is that really a reason to get so down on myself? The truth is I have neither gained, nor lost any weight since the end of summer and here we are heading towards the holidays. Not the end of the world, for sure, but still has caused me to feel very frustrated! It's obvious to me that the only one who can solve this dilemna is ME! I need to "get a grip" and take control - after all, this is MY journey! Needless to say, this is really why I'm back to journaling. One way for me to monitor my journey is to keep a journal, which I also have not been doing. I will set goals, I will follow them and I will get back on track. I realize that I am a happier person when I know I am in control of becoming healthier. It's when I lose control that I get "out of control" and as a result, very frustrated and moody...
So if my brain has over 70,000 thoughts a day, I need to keep them as positive and self-motivating as possible, such as telling myself
I so know what you are going through. I was really struggling with trying to look after myself. Even though I go to the gym 5 days a week I was sabotaging myself with food. I blamed it on family struggles but it really is up to me to change that. I did start listening to the weight loss hypnosis tapes I got from Dotti's and they seem to be helping. I think the one that is most meaningful is called "Appreciating Yourself". We all need to do that more.
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